Sunday, August 29, 2010

Day 1

I hope this gives me some place to "let it all out" without judgement.  Sorry if I offend some - (Not my intention!)- simply looking for a place to vent and gather support for the hardest trial of my life.
  Here goes- I have had it with my weight!!!!!!!!  clothes don't fit, can't tie my shoes without holding my breath-UGH!!!!!  what happend to me????? I was small and slim until I was 12 :) Ok then puberty hit and as my younger brother says-"It beat you up! "   I thing I skipped right over sizes  from girls 14- to a womans 14 in 1 year. 
      Now for the confession part, because if I want true support I need to be truthful no matter what.  so here goes.  My height 4 ft 10 inches, my weight 215 lbs. size 20 clothes.Ok it is all out there!  Photos will follow on my journey.  I will be able to maintain a guage on my clothing size but I will not post regular weights. Unfortunately I also have had problems with bulemia-so I don't own a scale.  I would love to be a smaller me- I know that I am in here somewhere. I would love to look better for me.  I have joined the gym again and will start back 5 days a week on the first of September.  Wish me luck!